Wrestling with Jacob

A journal of faith, grief and devotional musings

  • The life and death of passion

    Four family deaths and the burial of three loved ones on the same day did something to me that only those closest to me have witnessed. Today I want to reveal it to everybody. The death of Jacob has doused many passions I once enjoyed and involved myself in life. Like a bucket of water thrown on a campfire… Read more

  • Grief withdrawals

    It is 3:45 AM and I can’t sleep again. At least this time I wasn’t awakened by night terrors. Stress seems to trigger certain things in grief like restlessness and nightmares. There is a veiled part of grief that I carry that most do not see or recognize. I am struggling with it greatly at… Read more

  • American idol and freedom of religion

    We Americans enjoy our freedoms. Freedom of religion is a cherished right of our citizenship here for which many have died and I am truly thankful for. This freedom is allowing me to speak of Christ in my blog and proclaim his name each Sunday at Eden Bible Church without governmental interference. But with privilege… Read more

  • The face of addiction

    Overdose. What does that word conjure up in your mind? Put a face to the word overdose and who do you see? I know what it means for me because that is how my son and nephew died. Just ten months apart Justin overdosed on heroin and Jacob overdosed on prescription meds. I have asked myself… Read more

  • Every rose has its thorn

    Grief still lingers. I suppose that many around me that know the story of the loss of our son, and 3 other loved ones are happy for us when good and positive blessings happen in our lives. We get all the smiles, congratulations and pats on the back and all the while grief still lingers… Read more