Wrestling with Jacob

A journal of faith, grief and devotional musings

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  • Jerry’s Love

    The worst years of our lives were 2013 and 2014. Losing four loved ones unexpectedly caused extreme trauma for our family. We lost our nephew Justin on May 15th, 2013. Winter came and was especially long, hard, and cold. Losing Granny in December, Jake in March, and Mom in May just added to the pain.… Read more

  • Troubling Triggers

    Without question my grief trigger over the last three years has been music. From day one music has triggered for me sadness and pain. I can honestly say that I hated music, I hated everything about it and I found it nearly inescapable no matter how fast I tried to run from it. The sound… Read more

  • Grief withdrawals

    It is 3:45 AM and I can’t sleep again. At least this time I wasn’t awakened by night terrors. Stress seems to trigger certain things in grief like restlessness and nightmares. There is a veiled part of grief that I carry that most do not see or recognize. I am struggling with it greatly at… Read more