Wrestling with Jacob

A journal of faith, grief and devotional musings

comfort

  • Comfort at Christmas

    This is our ninth Christmas since our son Jacob died. It seems odd to write that. I felt stuck in time and in grief for so long I thought I’d never get relief. I remember reading and hearing people tell of how the holidays will get easier in time. I’m not sure I ever believed… Read more

  • The Comforter has come

    The image of a mother kneeling and lamenting at her sons coffin draped with an American flag has troubled me this week. We know all too well the depth of sorrow the death of a child brings on a soul. Grief grips you tightly. There were days that I thought I’d never be free from… Read more

  • Wrestling with why

    Why? The unanswered question of a bereaved parent. Jacob was 22 and struggled with anxiety, depression and drugs. We raised Jake in a Christian home with biblical teaching and values. But like many young people with the same upbringing he seemed to turn his heart away from the faith. This grieves the heart of parents… Read more

  • Meaningless memes

    The pain of losing a child is excruciating. Physically it is exhausting. Emotionally it drains you. Depression will overcome you at times. There were times when I didn’t care if life went on yet I was never suicidal. Five and a half years have passed. Time has left an awful scar to a terrible wound.… Read more

  • Four family lives suddenly lost in twelve months time. A nephew, a grandmother, a mother and a son, three of which were laid to rest on the same day. That was May 15th 2014 one year to the day that Justin our nephew died. Rob my 49 year old brother-in-law lost his fight with cancer… Read more