Wrestling with Jacob

A journal of faith, grief and devotional musings

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  • Jerry’s Love

    The worst years of our lives were 2013 and 2014. Losing four loved ones unexpectedly caused extreme trauma for our family. We lost our nephew Justin on May 15th, 2013. Winter came and was especially long, hard, and cold. Losing Granny in December, Jake in March, and Mom in May just added to the pain.… Read more

  • Still Wrestling With Jacob

    Ten years ago today Jacob Michael Fekete, my son, lived his last day among us. Wow, a decade has passed and I can say it’s been an education I wouldn’t wish on anyone. What I have learned I’ve tried to communicate as best I can by writing. Words have their limitations however to express what… Read more

  • Why? What’s the point?

    It’s approaching 10 years since our son Jacob died. “Feels like a lifetime ago and only yesterday” Stacey commented the other day. Hardship and suffering comes to all. There are no exemptions. Trouble leaves our broken world with questions like, why? What is the point of all this pain? Apart from faith those questions are… Read more

  • How I know heaven is for real

    Today marks 8 years since our son Jacob left us. What is heaven like for him? What does he see? What does he hear? I’ve been thinking about these things today. If he could return and tell us of heaven, which he will not, would it bring unbelievers to faith? No, it cannot. Paul the… Read more

  • The New Earth

    It’s earth day. The world is busy as ever trying to extend her shelf life. Climate change is real. The scriptures affirm its reality but how it happens is much different than the scoffing world expects. God is patiently waiting for men to turn to him. But like the flood the day of the Lord… Read more