Wrestling with Jacob

A journal of faith, grief and devotional musings

grief

  • Happily ever after

    My life story was written by the sovereign pen of God. Surely “a man’s steps are from the LORD; how then can man understand his way?” – Proverbs 20:24 There are dog ears folded in the pages of our autobiographies. Bookmarks in life that changed our hearts and changed the narrative. In my story, like… Read more

  • Wrestling with why

    Why? The unanswered question of a bereaved parent. Jacob was 22 and struggled with anxiety, depression and drugs. We raised Jake in a Christian home with biblical teaching and values. But like many young people with the same upbringing he seemed to turn his heart away from the faith. This grieves the heart of parents… Read more

  • Meaningless memes

    The pain of losing a child is excruciating. Physically it is exhausting. Emotionally it drains you. Depression will overcome you at times. There were times when I didn’t care if life went on yet I was never suicidal. Five and a half years have passed. Time has left an awful scar to a terrible wound.… Read more

  • Four family lives suddenly lost in twelve months time. A nephew, a grandmother, a mother and a son, three of which were laid to rest on the same day. That was May 15th 2014 one year to the day that Justin our nephew died. Rob my 49 year old brother-in-law lost his fight with cancer… Read more

  • Joy comes in the morning

    Next month marks five years since our son Jacob died of a prescription drug overdose. My life is nothing like it once was. Thinking on these last five years of flux the only thing that remains the same is God. He is the same yesterday today and forever. My faith has changed. I have changed.… Read more