Wrestling with Jacob

A journal of faith, grief and devotional musings

healing

  • A mother’s grief as seen through a father’s eyes

    One year ago today our mother, Linda Philo, left her earthly home and family to join her family in her heavenly home, she was 66 when she died. There were five generations of women in my home on mother’s day 2012. I remember that day very clearly because it was the last time these devoted moms… Read more

  • A time to mourn and a time to dance

    I will be giving my only daughter (Jordan) away in marriage in a few weeks. We are so happy for them and it does my heart good to see her beautiful smile of anticipation for the wedding. Jordan lost her brother and grandmother 6 weeks apart about this time last year. In her deep grief I remember… Read more

  • Over it, around it, and through it

    Grieving the death of a child: You can’t get over it, you can’t get around it, you must go through it. When the funeral is over and the committal has taken place there is a silence we experience that is shocking and frightening. Life must go on, but how? Life changes in every way for the parents… Read more

  • Grief shared is grief diminished

    The trauma and grief that a parent experiences when a child dies is unique unto itself. It has its own zip code, its own language that cannot be understood by those who cannot speak the dialect. I am the father of Jacob Michael Fekete who died March 26, 2014, around 10 am that day I received… Read more