Wrestling with Jacob

A journal of faith, grief and devotional musings

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  • Ten years ago today Jacob Michael Fekete, my son, lived his last day among us. Wow, a decade has passed and I can say it’s been an education I wouldn’t wish on anyone. What I have learned I’ve tried to communicate as best I can by writing. Words have their limitations however to express what Read more

  • Peaceful Sleep

    Modern medicine is amazing. Stacey and I both had colonoscopy screens this past week. We both requested the drug propofol for our procedure. It puts you to sleep quickly, it is painless and you wake up alert without memory of anything that just happened. Stacey and I both agreed that the experience with propofol might Read more

  • Today marks 8 years since our son Jacob left us. What is heaven like for him? What does he see? What does he hear? I’ve been thinking about these things today. If he could return and tell us of heaven, which he will not, would it bring unbelievers to faith? No, it cannot. Paul the Read more

  • I long to see my son and loved ones face to face in heaven. The great hope of the Christian faith is the resurrection made possible by the life, death resurrection and ascension of Jesus. He is firstfruits of that harvest. Whom I will give thanks to, in person, in a new body, forever. I Read more

  • A comforting sign

    It is Easter Sunday morning and I have been awake since 4:30. I sip on my coffee in the silence with this Mac on my lap as I listen to a robin sing outside my window. I ponder what life would be like if the birds hushed their singing. What a wonderful grace this is Read more