Wrestling with Jacob

A journal of faith, grief and devotional musings

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  • Time and Change

    We planted a flowering tree in memory of Jacob Fekete our son after he died. Later we transplanted it in 2017 when we sold our old house and moved. I named the tree Jacob Feketree. Last fall I noticed signs that the tree might be dying. Spring has now arrived. There are no buds and… Read more

  • Precious Promises

    We are born into troubles. In those times of trouble, there are kind people with good intentions who try to console you with good and kind words because they care. Or perhaps because they don’t know what else to say. When facing cancer, you’ll hear them quote Romans 8:28 or say things like, “God’s got… Read more

  • “Grief shared is grief diminished.” An insightful statement from Gaylord my wise friend a career funeral director. Shortly after Jake’s funeral I continued to bump into people grieving over him and feeling terrible for Stacey and I. People were hurting with us. The splinter of grief was buried deep and they needed help removing it.… Read more

  • Faith under fire

    I rarely allow my mind to recall the events surrounding the worst day of our married life. The day our son died. Today I will go there with the hope that somebody needs to hear this message and might be helped by telling it. I sat alone on the open staircase with a house full… Read more

  • Ten years ago today Jacob Michael Fekete, my son, lived his last day among us. Wow, a decade has passed and I can say it’s been an education I wouldn’t wish on anyone. What I have learned I’ve tried to communicate as best I can by writing. Words have their limitations however to express what… Read more