Wrestling with Jacob

A journal of faith, grief and devotional musings

Jesus

  • Hope guaranteed. A new body and abundant life

    I long to see my son and loved ones face to face in heaven. The great hope of the Christian faith is the resurrection made possible by the life, death resurrection and ascension of Jesus. He is firstfruits of that harvest. Whom I will give thanks to, in person, in a new body, forever. I… Read more

  • Happily ever after

    My life story was written by the sovereign pen of God. Surely “a man’s steps are from the LORD; how then can man understand his way?” – Proverbs 20:24 There are dog ears folded in the pages of our autobiographies. Bookmarks in life that changed our hearts and changed the narrative. In my story, like… Read more

  • Meaningless memes

    The pain of losing a child is excruciating. Physically it is exhausting. Emotionally it drains you. Depression will overcome you at times. There were times when I didn’t care if life went on yet I was never suicidal. Five and a half years have passed. Time has left an awful scar to a terrible wound.… Read more

  • February 5th 1996 was life changing

    We reminisced of our younger days with some dear friends the other day. She was 19 and I was 20, we got married and started a family just a few short months later. It was the fall of 1988. I was a boy, a selfish young man who knew nothing of life, of being a… Read more

  • Getting caught in a grief bubble

    Life is difficult. Doing life while grieving is extremely difficult. There are coping mechanisms that I have used consciously and unconsciously to deflect and protect myself from unwanted pain. Since our son Jacob died many times it has felt as though we have been at our emotional limits. There is a coping mechanism, a shield, or a… Read more