Wrestling with Jacob

A journal of faith, grief and devotional musings

loss of child

  • I long to see my son and loved ones face to face in heaven. The great hope of the Christian faith is the resurrection made possible by the life, death resurrection and ascension of Jesus. He is firstfruits of that harvest. Whom I will give thanks to, in person, in a new body, forever. I… Read more

  • Happily ever after

    My life story was written by the sovereign pen of God. Surely “a man’s steps are from the LORD; how then can man understand his way?” – Proverbs 20:24 There are dog ears folded in the pages of our autobiographies. Bookmarks in life that changed our hearts and changed the narrative. In my story, like… Read more

  • Wrestling with why

    Why? The unanswered question of a bereaved parent. Jacob was 22 and struggled with anxiety, depression and drugs. We raised Jake in a Christian home with biblical teaching and values. But like many young people with the same upbringing he seemed to turn his heart away from the faith. This grieves the heart of parents… Read more

  • Meaningless memes

    The pain of losing a child is excruciating. Physically it is exhausting. Emotionally it drains you. Depression will overcome you at times. There were times when I didn’t care if life went on yet I was never suicidal. Five and a half years have passed. Time has left an awful scar to a terrible wound.… Read more

  • Joy comes in the morning

    Next month marks five years since our son Jacob died of a prescription drug overdose. My life is nothing like it once was. Thinking on these last five years of flux the only thing that remains the same is God. He is the same yesterday today and forever. My faith has changed. I have changed.… Read more