Northern Michigan is warm, wet and brown this December. It was a balmy 60 degrees yesterday and the weather forecast has much of the same for the next ten days. It doesn’t look like Christmas, it doesn’t feel like Christmas and it’s OK with me.
I’m not being a bah hum bugger or a grinch and I’m not on the, “Christmas is too commercialized band wagon.” either. It’s just easier for me to endure this second Christmas apart from my lost son, and other loved ones, without all the sights, sounds, smells and bells of the holiday season.
I am haunted by the ghost of Christmas past each day in December. I am waiting anxiously for New Years eve because it marks the end of another season that can’t get over fast enough. I go Christmas shopping with my wife and I get slapped in the face with Christmas music. Holiday songs awaken my grief and the ghost takes my mind to a place I once was but where I can never return. Songs like, Blue Christmas and I’ll be home for Christmas cut my heart open wide and my internal bleeding rolls down my cheek. I walk and I wonder who else is hurting like me among all the shoppes and shoppers in all this holiday hoopla.
Here I sit in my undecorated home. No tree, no lights, no nativity. No indication that it’s the holidays, only a couple Christmas cards on the counter and some unwrapped gifts in the bedroom. I hear the rain dripping off the roof, I see the snowless landscape out of my bay window and I like it this way. I am reminded of last Christmas as I sit here musing. The tormenting spirit pokes me again. There, on a table sits a Christmas gift to us from my brother and his wife. It is a hand crafted night light, a beacon of hope and a gentle reminder of healing really. It reminds me of last year, our first Christmas without Jacob and the awful pain we felt. I hurt, I am sad, but that light reminds me that the pain is duller and the grief is not as intense as it was a year ago. Maybe in years to come we will get a tree and decorate it with all the special ornaments that the kids made when they were small. Not this year, not yet, and I prefer it this way.
People say remember the reason for the season. Christmas means many things to many people but as a Christian it is a reminder of the incarnation of God into the stream of humanity. December is a time to remember this great truth but for me not a day goes by that I do not remember that Jesus entered into this world and returned home to his Father. Every day is Christmas and Easter for a believer because the good news of Jesus Christ never leaves our heart.
I remember Bethlehem, I remember Jerusalem and I remember Jesus on a hill called Calvary nailed to a tree. I remember his death on a cross that brought peace and good will towards men. I continually remember that he walked out of a tomb and appeared to 500 people over 40 days. I recall his ascention and his glorification and his promise that I cling to daily. A promise engraved in a book, in my heart and in marble at my sons resting place. It is in Jesus that I have found daily peace and in him I have good hope and genuine eternal peace.
world peace imagined
“His name shall be called Wonderful, Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace……” (Isaiah 9:6b) .
In John Lennon’s classic hit Imagine he said, “You, may say I’m a dreamer, but I’m not the only one. I hope someday you will join us and the world will live as one.” Was John Lennon the price of peace? John was a dreamer and many have dreamed along with him but will peace and oneness ever be possible in our world? Did he unite the world in the peace movement, can we today? No, the imaginations of John Lennon are impossible because peace is a byproduct of something else; something this world lacks.
Peace is a byproduct of righteousness. Isaiah said, “The effect of righteousness will be peace, and the result of righteousness, quietness and trust forever.” (Isaiah 32:17) Is the world concerned with righteousness? The world is actually quite unconcerned with righteousness, Jesus said himself that the world loves darkness rather that light (John 3:18-21) How then can world peace be possible in a world that loves darkness?
World peace realized
I do believe in a coming world peace but not without the Righteous One; Jesus is the Prince of Peace. Any other way is for dreamers, unimaginable and frankly humanly impossible. Are we closer to world peace than when Lennon penned those famous words in 1971?
Read through the cited verses on my son’s headstone and you will discover these words from the returning Price of Peace. Jesus said, “In my Father’s house are many rooms. If it were not so, would I have told you that I go to prepare a place for you? And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come again and take you to myself, that where I am you may be also. (John 14:2-4)
The world cries out against peace and thirsts for blood as they did in the days of Jesus. Pontus Pilate said, “Behold your King! And the world responds as his own people did 2000 years ago. “Away with him, away with him!” Shall I crucify your King?” The chief priests answered, “We have no king but Caesar.” So he delivered him over to them to be crucified. (John 19: 14-16) The people agreed and screamed, “We will not have this man rule over us!” They bowed to government while killing the King of the Nations.
An invitation from the King of Peace
….Isaiah concludes, “Of the increase of his government and of peace there will be no end, on the throne of David and over his kingdom, to establish it and to uphold it with justice and righteousness from this time forth and forevermore. The zeal of the Lord of hosts will do this.” (Isaiah 9:7-9) This is a real King who will rule on this earth from Jerusalem forever and ever……..
….and I conclude are you ready for this coming King?
The bible closes with an invitation to life and peace. Jesus the Prince of Life and Peace cries out from his throne and says, “Surely I am coming soon!” (Revelation 22:20)
Can you say with the apostle John, “Amen! Come, Lord Jesus!”
Peace to you my friends and Merry Christmas. “Blessed are the peacemakers, for they shall be called sons of God.” (Matthew 5:9)