Wrestling with Jacob

A journal of faith, grief and devotional musings

grief

  • The trauma and grief that a parent experiences when a child dies is unique unto itself. It has its own zip code, its own language that cannot be understood by those who cannot speak the dialect. I am the father of Jacob Michael Fekete who died March 26, 2014, around 10 am that day I received… Read more

  • Finding peace

    I have not been at peace. Since Jacob died last March I have been tormented and pained deeply with the thought that he may not be in heaven. Everyone else was at peace but I could not find rest. On the back of Jacob’s headstone we had these words engraved, “Let not your heart be troubled…John 14:1-3. These unfinished… Read more

  • Letting go

    Letting go Letting go of life is a difficult thing to do. I have often viewed my life as a five fingered hand grasping tightly to what I cherished most, holding tightly to things I believed were of high importance. I have learned the hard way that God has a way of pulling back my… Read more