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I don’t hurt the same way at Christmas anymore. I don’t dread the holiday season anymore. I don’t desire to isolate myself at this time of year anymore. This is Christmas number five since my son left this life. There was a time when I felt the heaviness would always return at this time of Read more
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Life for us got derailed a little more than four years ago. The wreckage was overwhelming and seemed as though repairing life and getting back on track could never happen. Thankfully it does. Lately I feel like I have finally come to accept life without Jake. I spoke with a 30 year club member the Read more
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My wife had her heart set on a pretty dress she found last Friday but didn’t buy it. She mentioned it to me and I thought it would make her a great early birthday gift. We decided to go the next morning and left for the local Saint Patrick’s day activities. Saturday morning we walked Read more
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We reminisced of our younger days with some dear friends the other day. She was 19 and I was 20, we got married and started a family just a few short months later. It was the fall of 1988. I was a boy, a selfish young man who knew nothing of life, of being a Read more
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Life is difficult. Doing life while grieving is extremely difficult. There are coping mechanisms that I have used consciously and unconsciously to deflect and protect myself from unwanted pain. Since our son Jacob died many times it has felt as though we have been at our emotional limits. There is a coping mechanism, a shield, or a Read more
Wrestling with Jacob 