Wrestling with Jacob

A journal of faith, grief and devotional musings

loss of child

  • Ten years ago today Jacob Michael Fekete, my son, lived his last day among us. Wow, a decade has passed and I can say it’s been an education I wouldn’t wish on anyone. What I have learned I’ve tried to communicate as best I can by writing. Words have their limitations however to express what Read more

  • Why? What’s the point?

    It’s approaching 10 years since our son Jacob died. “Feels like a lifetime ago and only yesterday” Stacey commented the other day. Hardship and suffering comes to all. There are no exemptions. Trouble leaves our broken world with questions like, why? What is the point of all this pain? Apart from faith those questions are Read more

  • A Prescription for Peace Someone was choking me. It felt as though a sandbag was placed on my chest. I sensed an evil presence and this lasted many months after my son Jacob died. I’d wake up screaming from my sleep and was afraid to return to my sleep. I was not at peace. I Read more

  • Fading Blooms

    Saturday we went to be with lifelong friends whose daughter was tragically killed hours before. Words in those times fail and so they should. Our presence and our silence are the best comforters in times like these. Stacey wisely commenting on our time with them said, “There will be time for words later.” We understand Read more

  • Words of Hope

    Today I remember my son Jake. 3/3/92-3/26/14 More importantly I remember the words and works of Jesus. Who alone has the power and authority to speak life into the dead, and into a world full of dead men walking. Our words have power but that power is very limited. Actually the power of our words Read more