Wrestling with Jacob

A journal of faith, grief and devotional musings

loss of child

  • Meaningless memes

    The pain of losing a child is excruciating. Physically it is exhausting. Emotionally it drains you. Depression will overcome you at times. There were times when I didn’t care if life went on yet I was never suicidal. Five and a half years have passed. Time has left an awful scar to a terrible wound. Read more

  • Joy comes in the morning

    Next month marks five years since our son Jacob died of a prescription drug overdose. My life is nothing like it once was. Thinking on these last five years of flux the only thing that remains the same is God. He is the same yesterday today and forever. My faith has changed. I have changed. Read more

  • Hope in hard times

    Its been nearly 5 years since my son died. The three anchors that have moored me in the most difficult days are faith, hope and love. Heartache and hardships truly test the validity of these three foundational Christian principles. I have found that it is impossible to destroy these three things. The ship may be Read more

  • Anymore till evermore

    I don’t hurt the same way at Christmas anymore. I don’t dread the holiday season anymore. I don’t desire to isolate myself at this time of year anymore. This is Christmas number five since my son left this life. There was a time when I felt the heaviness would always return at this time of Read more

  • Seasons of silence

    My wife had her heart set on a pretty dress she found last Friday but didn’t buy it. She mentioned it to me and I thought it would make her a great early birthday gift. We decided to go the next morning and left for the local Saint Patrick’s day activities. Saturday morning we walked Read more