Wrestling with Jacob

A journal of faith, grief and devotional musings

recovery

  • Why? What’s the point?

    It’s approaching 10 years since our son Jacob died. “Feels like a lifetime ago and only yesterday” Stacey commented the other day. Hardship and suffering comes to all. There are no exemptions. Trouble leaves our broken world with questions like, why? What is the point of all this pain? Apart from faith those questions are Read more

  • Peaceful Sleep

    Modern medicine is amazing. Stacey and I both had colonoscopy screens this past week. We both requested the drug propofol for our procedure. It puts you to sleep quickly, it is painless and you wake up alert without memory of anything that just happened. Stacey and I both agreed that the experience with propofol might Read more

  • Happily ever after

    My life story was written by the sovereign pen of God. Surely “a man’s steps are from the LORD; how then can man understand his way?” – Proverbs 20:24 There are dog ears folded in the pages of our autobiographies. Bookmarks in life that changed our hearts and changed the narrative. In my story, like Read more

  • Meaningless memes

    The pain of losing a child is excruciating. Physically it is exhausting. Emotionally it drains you. Depression will overcome you at times. There were times when I didn’t care if life went on yet I was never suicidal. Five and a half years have passed. Time has left an awful scar to a terrible wound. Read more

  • Anymore till evermore

    I don’t hurt the same way at Christmas anymore. I don’t dread the holiday season anymore. I don’t desire to isolate myself at this time of year anymore. This is Christmas number five since my son left this life. There was a time when I felt the heaviness would always return at this time of Read more