Wrestling with Jacob

A journal of faith, grief and devotional musings

grief

  • There are innumerable voices in the world. Voices that come into our ears that effect our thinking to direct our lives into the paths we find ourselves on. We are molded by the voices we receive and reject, these voices shape our thinking into our own distinct voice. It begins at our birth with the voices of those who love us most. Soon afterward we Read more

  • I was a 88 pound weakling in the seventh grade, and then there was Bill. He was a 9th grade wrestler and an antagonist bully who never referred to me as Mike but usually as runt or some other four letter word. Bill inspired me to become a wrestler, not because I wanted to be Read more

  • Grieving the death of a child: You can’t get over it, you can’t get around it, you must go through it. When the funeral is over and the committal has taken place there is a silence we experience that is shocking and frightening. Life must go on, but how? Life changes in every way for the parents Read more

  • The calls

    The call that none of us want to receive never came to my wife, she delivered it. Stacey found our son Jacob dead on our basement bathroom floor a year ago today. I got the call about around 10 AM, she was frantic and wailing things that I couldn’t understand. I asked her to repeat Read more

  • And this is eternal life, that they know you the only true God, and Jesus Christ whom you have sent- Jesus  What Jacob left behind after his death brings a measure of comfort to me in his absence. I open the door to his bedroom, I see his things, I smell his clothes and remember his Read more