Wrestling with Jacob

A journal of faith, grief and devotional musings

grief

  • Grief shared is grief diminished

    The trauma and grief that a parent experiences when a child dies is unique unto itself. It has its own zip code, its own language that cannot be understood by those who cannot speak the dialect. I am the father of Jacob Michael Fekete who died March 26, 2014, around 10 am that day I received Read more

  • Get a whiff of this

    Its coming up on a year since Jacob died, he would have turned 23 on March 3rd. I had 22 years of opportunity to influence his life for good and now I live with only the memories of what I did right or wrong. Do I wish I could change some things? Certainly. Do I live with Read more

  • Joyful growing pangs

    Better to go to the house of mourning than to go to the house of feasting, for that is the end of all men; and the living will take it to heart. Sorrow is better than laughter, for by a sad countenance the heart is made better. The heart of the wise is in the Read more

  • Letting go

    Letting go Letting go of life is a difficult thing to do. I have often viewed my life as a five fingered hand grasping tightly to what I cherished most, holding tightly to things I believed were of high importance. I have learned the hard way that God has a way of pulling back my Read more